“Investigate my life, O God, find out everything about me; Cross-examine and test me, get a clear picture of what I’m about; See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong— then guide me on the road to eternal life.” – Psalm 139:23-24
“God is faithful and reliable. If we confess our sins, he forgives them and cleanses us from everything we’ve done wrong.” 1 John 1:9 GWT
My heart pounded right up into my throat. My hearing became murky as if I was underwater. I ached throughout my body as I awaited to sit before a grand jury. All I needed to do was tell precisely what happened to me prior to the night my family and I became victims of a crime.
The District Attorney led me into the room and sat beside me in front of a grand jury comprised of peers. As I took a deep breath, prayed and began to speak, I could feel the hot, prickly ache leave my body as I expressed what happened. I heard my voice gain confidence and no longer waver as I concluded. I looked into the eyes of each of the jury as they began to cross-examine me to gather clarified facts. I felt heard and emboldened for the first time since the crime.
When I ask God to cross-examine me, my heart pounds and my body aches as I recall my imperfections, my wrong-doings, my sin. Yet, I know that once I confess my sins to God, He not only hears and forgives me, but emboldens and strengthens my character. As I read His Word, He instructs me on how to live my life and how to place my trust fully in Him, because He is faithful and reliable. I am so thankful that He guides and protects me on the road to eternal life.
Prayer: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your forgiveness and Your loving guidance. Strengthen my frame as I accept Your investigation into my life, because I know that You will bring about good to honor You. Please bless the lives of the readers and show them Your faithfulness and peace. In Jesus’ name, Amen.