“Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, ‘children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.’ Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky.” Philippians 2:14-15
How many times have I grumbled? Oh dear! I really pondered this question. At first reflection, I thought about the many times I’ve grumbled at having to wake up early or doing anything else I don’t really want to, but I try not to grumble in front of others. That’s good, right? Well, I’ve grumbled before the Lord though. Last week, I remember waking at 2:30am and thinking, why am I awake? I began to pray for different people that came into my mind and I prayed that I’d fall back to sleep.
Two hours later, I was exhausted and getting grumpy. I specifically remember saying, “Lord, You know that I don’t sleep well to begin with, but to keep me up for two hours in the middle of the night!? Why?” Then a flood of why questions followed with tears. Who am I to be asking the Creator of all things why He’s done what He’s done!?
I may not know why I was awake those two hours, but He does. He calls us to serve even when we may not want to. Perhaps, someone I prayed for in those early hours was somehow protected or comforted. If so, I’m thankful God awoke me to pray. I believe His Word that He does all things for His and our good.
Prayer: Dear Omniscient Lord, thank You for calling me to pray during a sleepless night. Forgive my grumbling. Help me to be blameless and pure. May I hear Your voice day and night, so that I may shine like stars in the sky. In Jesus’ name. Amen!