“By faith we understand that the entire universe was formed at God’s command, that what we now see did not come from anything that can be seen.”
Hebrews 11:3 NLT
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5 NLT
This past year has been a year of growth for my husband and I, and now that we are coming out of the tunnel vision that is life in a crisis, I am able to start processing it all. Right now, in little bites, but processing….
One thing I’m learning about myself is that there is a big difference between faith and trust. I know in the depths of my being that God exists, that God loves me, that God created the entire universe, and that with just a thought, God could restore complete health to my husband or anyone… I have complete faith in this!!
Where I needed to grow, where I’m still growing, is trust. I have never doubted God’s ability to heal or restore, I had the most trouble trusting God’s plan for us. When I cry out to God, it’s not in a lack of faith, but in fear that God’s plan isn’t my plan or way…..
God tells us to trust Him, not trusting our own desires or understanding, but trust Him completely. This can be so challenging for me, the closet control freak! It’s easy to trust Him when things are going my way, but what about when things look as if they are falling apart? I’m learning that true trust is surrendering, trusting that God’s plan is what is best, best for everyone.
Trusting that if God wanted to bring my husband home to Him in this illness, then that was His perfect plan for my husband and I would have to trust Him to take care of me. Trusting God as you watch your children face painful consequences for choices they made, trusting that He has the perfect plan to bring them where they need to be.
Truly trusting Him is completely surrendering everyone and everything you love to Him, and then letting go…. Now seeing my husband’s health returning and having seen my children’s growth through facing hard things, I know my faith and trust is in the right hands.
Prayer: Heavenly Father, thank you for Your great love and patience with me as I grow in You. Please continue to help me surrender to Your will with complete trust. For I know, Your plans for me are always perfect! Amen